| finally... |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
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for the past three days, i've been out on a river. i had a great time, but am way to exhausted to give a full recount at the moment, so maybe tomorro, or the next day. we'll see.
Philip K. Dick:
Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.
tj |
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| no place like home.... |
[Jun. 11th, 2005|10:26 pm] |
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i always go away every summer, but this one is going to especially trying physically, emotionally, its just going to be crazy. i was hoping to have most of my summer to be home and have fun, since it is the last time i'll be able to see alot of my friends b4 i go to college, but my first three weeks are being spent in missouri with my dad and stepmom, and no one else, literally. i know no one here and its damn lonely.
i got a phone call yesterday from my manager telling me to call bob armor(second in charge for the chain of restaurants i work for), and when i called him he offered me a three week job in north carolina opening one of our restaurants(training new employees). of course i said yes, its great money i can put away for college, and thats something that doesn'tcome around for a 17 year old to do too often. but, that does mean three weeks of 10-12 hour days, i won't have a car, i really won't know anyone, and i have to have my birthday up there(july 16).
aside from the money, the only good thing about all of this time away is the fact that i get some necessary time off from some certain recreationl activities, which i'm not even too happy about.
as a reflection over the pre-college period of my life, i have too say that it was pretty awesome, especially my senior year, but it was also dissappointing, especially my senior year. alot of goals went unaccomplished, so i guess they'll have to role over into college. no geting everything done that i wanted kind of makes graduating seem incomplete.
certain people deserve big thankyous for some help that was given to me, and even though they don't read lj's, its being said.
i'll be home from june 21 to june 23, and then from the 26 to the 30, and then i'm gone until the end of july unless something else comes up, so anyone can feel free to gimme a call to do something while i'm home, and i'd better get a ton of phone clls on my bd, but since no one reads lj's i'll let people know when i'm home.
Denise Levertov:
Affliction is more apt to suffocate the imagination than to stimulate it.
--for those of you who enjoy nature, i saw a bald eagle when i was out on the river a few days ago. thats something you just don't see in florida.
tj |
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| wow...... |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|11:31 am] |
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i haven't posted in a few months, and now i'm breaking my lj abstinance. I'm not actually posting, i'm just recognizing that i haven't posted in a while, however, i might start posting once in a while.
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.
Friedrich Nietzsche
And this I believe: that the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in all the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual.
John Steinbeck, East of Eden
tj:-) |
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| blah |
[Oct. 19th, 2004|11:34 pm] |
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i almost started seriously updating again, but i have nothing good to say, so i'll keep it to myself.
tj :-/
ps: i'm not gonna make it to the beach any time soon(just in case you read this) |
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| b-day |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|08:34 pm] |
well, the 16th is finally here, and i am no longer 16. nothing different really. that's it, not doing anything yet.
Age is a high price to pay for maturity.
Tom Stoppard
tj:-) |
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| friday...... |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|10:41 pm] |
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got home tonight from a town called branson, where i stayed free at the radison there. all we had to do was tour the bas pro resort there. and they gave us a 75 dollar gift certificate to bass pro shop. saw spider man 2 at an i max, it was ok. did some fishing, went to three buffets, and went to this place that's kinda like lion country safari, but u get to roll ur windows down and feed the animals(i also got bitten by a giraffe-sp- and spit on by a llama).
well, its almost time for me to come home. i leave here thursday night and get into ft lauderdale at 1 in the morning on friday the 16. if ur up, feel free to gimme a call. that's all for now.
Frank Crane:
You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough.
and just for fun:
George W. Bush:
You teach a child to read, and he or her will be able to pass a literacy test.
George W. Bush:
One of the great things about books is sometimes there are some fantastic pictures.
tj:-) |
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| good day |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|08:53 pm] |
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went floating and fishing. went with my cousin today, on my stepmom's side. it was alot of fun. then we came back to the house and we went squirrel hunting, and i learned how to clean one. its pretty easy. that pretty much makes me an official country person.
it sucks that i'm sitting here doing nothing while everyone is partying at jay's house, but i'll get all the details later. leave tomorrow for the bass pro shops wilderness lodge. i'll be there for three days. and i come home friday. that's it for now.
Eric Hoffer:
When people are bored, it is primarily with their own selves that they are bored.
tj:-) |
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| b-day |
[Jul. 8th, 2004|11:47 pm] |
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i know that u don't read my lj, and i'm probably going to give u a call anyway, but just sending a happy birtyday to jay. srry i'm missing ur party, but if i would've known i would have come back sooner. that's prety much it.
Confucius:
Silence is the true friend that never betrays.
Edgar Watson Howe:
When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.
Gore Vidal:
Whenever a friend succeeds, a little something in me dies.
unknown
Friendship does not warrant correspondance; years apart should not tarnish the vivacity of what was once new.
-interesting.......
tj:-/ |
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| so tired.......... |
[Jul. 8th, 2004|12:10 am] |
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got home from a three day river trip today. it was alot of fun. caught over 40 fish between me, my dad, and my stepmom. found out there is a bug that is mi between an elephant and a triple wingged dragon fly, and it was very big.
ready to get home so i can hang out. someone should have a huge all-day and night sleepover party before band camp and after i get home. that would rock. hope i'm not missing out no too much stuff at home.
so there are no people up here. i'm all the way out in the country, with no one to talk to but my dad, stepmom, the cats, and the dog. alot different than being in coral springs, even though we say that there is nothing to do there.
i can't believe how much work is waiting for me when i get home: my job, college apps, the books i'm supposed to be reading. i think i'll dedicate the days to work and the nights to fun stuff.
nothing else for now.
Gertrude Stein:
When they are alone they want to be with others, and when they are with others they want to be alone. After all, human beings are like that.
tj:-{ |
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| FINAL EVALUATION |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|12:14 am] |
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well, i spent the day sitting on my ass, literally all day, and i've come to the conclusion that this year has really sucked alot of ass. aside from the fact that junior year is the hardest, and the fact that more drama has gone on this year than any other one of my years in band, it just sucked.
i mean, don't get me wrong, there were a handful of things that were awesome, like breckenridge, boa, poker, and i'm sure the rest can be figured out. i've seen more evil this year, lost more friends(and i bet they don't even realize it), and just have been generally disappointed in the year's expectations, not to be emo, but i'm just saying what i think is the truth.
and here's the worst part, i had to watch more people than usual have one of their best years ever, of course with a few exceptions. if the summer doesn't take a turn for the better when i get home, its going to make starting my senior year really hard.
that's it for my complaining until my next "sit on ur as day", which won't bee for a while(i'm a very busy man here in the country).
Allan K. Chalmers:
The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
-one out three ain't bad
tj :-| |
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| damn............. |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|11:37 pm] |
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i stayed away for so long, and here i find myself posting once again. i need someone to talk to(not really) while i'm here in missouri. bought 100 dollars worth of fireworks yesterday, or 2 days ago in florida time. went on a 1 day float/fishing trip, but monday we're going for 4 days. if mark reads this, jason and amy took the forking the lawn idea we had. looks like we'll have to go with the baby jesus', lol. For those of u whp are going to go to jason's party, let me know how it is because i'm going to miss it, but hey, still have pauke palooza to look forward to(i think). i don't feel like updating about the 6 months that got left out of lj and going all emo, so u'll have to go without the drama. that's it for today.
Alexander Pope:
'Blessed is the man who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed' was the ninth beatitude.
tj :-/ |
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| damn |
[Jan. 26th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
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i just wrote a page long entry, and i lost it. here's a summary:
-the door is closed.......
- "what does emo mean?"
-broken cell phone
-job interview
-hectic week ahead
"its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."
-remember that charlie brown
tj :-/ |
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| long weekend......... |
[Jan. 19th, 2004|01:06 am] |
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so far, this weekend has been going decently. friday me and a buch of people went to the c.s. super buffet for my half birthday. then we went to the beach and met up with some more people. there was me, cc, mark, amy, skott, mike, anthony, and sal n.
woke up saturday and went to play some football. ww/perc won. i think it was 42 to 28. the day turned out to be alot better than i thought it would be. it actually went by really quickly. on the breaks we played catch phrase, and we got pilato turned onto the craze. i'm sure he'll be buying it soon. had a 7-11 for about an hour. two newbies: steepic and adam kol. added jaime to the pact, which would make three(or 4?). went to greg's for a while, and then went over to jay's. me, greg, skott, and amy hung out there for a few hours. me and amy left around 2:15. it was cool hanging out with them. we usually only see each other in school. kind of.....weird, but still alot of fun.
woke up this morning and went to church. came home and sat on my ass, slept for a while. stayed home for the night. and so here i am, sitting here bored.
random thoughts:
-i don't like change
-there is a certain person i am determined to find a woman for
-you've gotta get off your ass and move on
-my bro's b-day is tuesday. 7 years old
-already looking forward to spring break
-roby george rules
-what happened to all of my running buddies?
and thats it.
lets play a little game. try and name the person woh came up with this quote. its not an easy one. good luck.
"I drink in victory because i deserve it, and i drink in defeat because i need it."
until next time,
tj :-) |
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| finally...... |
[Jan. 6th, 2004|10:33 pm] |
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| | i honestly love you | ] |
well, while i was working with my hermanito on his homework, i sent my mom out to get the last ingredient for the sushi. i made a total of three rolls, and ran out of salmon, so i had to throw out my the extra rice. it was pretty damn good, aside from the fact that the soy sauce i had in my house was not the kind in the restaurants, but it still came out great.
one day, i want to have a big sushi day, and i can show mark how to make it(he has sushi stuff) and me and him can make some for a bunch of people. that'll be cool.
All along this path I tread, my heart betrays my weary head, with nothing but my love to save, from the cradle to the grave...
--Eric Clapton
tj:-} |
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| decent day..... |
[Jan. 5th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
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| | aggravated | ] |
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| | i feel pretty (anger management) | ] |
well, i finally got home from missouri on sunday around 12. went home for a little bit, an then got ready to go to frisbee. it was fun, but its getting way to competetive, with so many rules and stuff. there are also alot of people.
after that i went home to do sopme homework, and then went to eat at applebee's with alexis, amy, and danny. it was fun, i got the riblets, but they take way to long to eat compared to regular ribs.
first day back went pretty well. it sucked not having jazz band, but apush isn't that bad to start the day with. in cremin's class we had our second day of the year where we actually learned something. it was kinda fun to.
went and hung out at mario's after school. it turned out that someone had hacked his screen name. he was getting that message that he was signed on in two different locations. so he changed his password, and it gave him the same message. sucks for him.
wanted to make sushi tonight, but it turns out i was missing one minor ingredient for the rice, but later this week i'll make sure i have all of the things i need.
"lives of great men all remind us
we can make our lives sublime,
And, departing, leave behind us
footprints on the sands of time."
- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
tj. :-) |
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| merry christmas |
[Dec. 25th, 2003|07:31 pm] |
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well, its time for a quick update. skiiing was greAT. I most definately rock. it sucks that mike had the flu and couldn't ski, but it was still fun. i hope you get better soon mike. we stayed in a four story cabin, and i got my own room w/full bathroom which rocked. brekenridge is a beautiful place, and i loved seeing snow, lots of snow. its fun being away, but i miss hanging out with friends.
presents:
-cc cookies
-amy cookies
-MnM's
-candy cane
-brownie
and that's it, bit i'm sure my mom got me something for when i get home.
well, gtg. i'll update later about my dad's work party.
When bad men combine, the good must associate; else they will fall one by one, an unpitied sacrifice in a contemptible struggle."
-Edmund Burke,
tj :-) |
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| finally...... |
[Dec. 18th, 2003|09:54 pm] |
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| | ER music | ] |
tomorrow i'll be "leaving on a jet plane"(lol) for colorado. its about time for a break. its long overdue. i'm really excited, but it sucks that i won't be able to hang out with anyonr for the entire break.
i'll be in school for first hour, just to say my farewells, and for jazz band of course.
what sucks even more is that i'm going to miss third hour. if only i were leaving an hour later. o well, what can you do.
right now i'm finishing my packing. the worst parts of any trip are the packing and unpacking. this is when i wish i had a maid to do all to do all of this stuff.
just so you know, i won't be posting until around christmas day. that's when i'll be at my dad's house in MO(missouri). drop me some posts and let me know how your breaks are going.
There are those who look at things the way they are, and ask why... I dream of things that never were, and ask why not?
-- Robert Francis Kennedy
Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.
-- Leo Buscaglia
until next time, have a great christmas break.
tj :-} |
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| amazing!! |
[Dec. 16th, 2003|12:26 am] |
well, the prism concert was a success. i must say that malaga was insanely awesome, sugar rum went extremely well, and all of the other acts were also kick ass. i have to give mad props to mike for the great recovery in the junior custodians thing. that was really slick. and skott did a great job going along with it.
i hope all of the people in wind orchestra got a harsh reality check tonight, because we're not sounding like we should at this stage in the game. fifth hour had a way better sound than us, and second hour is getting pretty darn close.
so, at denny's on monday night after volley/basketball, me, scott, mario, mark, ian, and erica went out to denny's. some how we started talking about this white stuff that was on mark's uniform last year, right around the zipper area. erica said something like "i know what you were doing", and mark replied with "well, i was going out with you at the time." it was so random and unexpected, i almost spit soda all over the place.
i'm really excited about this winter break. skiing with mike, and then going to see my pops in missouri. its gonna be a blast, but it does suck that this is the fourth christmas break that i've spent away from home in a row. whatever, it'll be fun.
mr. p got me looking forward to friday. we're going to be reading new music, and possibly dance movements, which would kick so much ass.
and so that closes this entry.
"When one ceases from conflict, whether because he has won, because he has lost, or because he cares no more for the game, the virtue passes out of him."
-Charles Horton Cooley
tj :-) |
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| what a day |
[Dec. 15th, 2003|12:17 am] |
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| | candide(oh happy we) | ] |
we got out of the entire day today for the prism rehearsal, except for the end of seventh hour. the runthrough went pretty damn smooth, i must say.
after school hung out in the band room with jay, amy, cc, danny, mr p, erica, and others i might've forgotten. that was pretty cool.
at 5:30 went to play volley/basketball. we played until 8, and then went to denny's until 9:15.
in case you haven't heard, there is a hacker previously known as kelden who is messing with people's lj's, so change your passwords, in case you didn't read mr. p's lj.
is it me, or are there alot of mixed up problems in the band? the dating cycle is all out of wack, like some sort of spacial disturbance or something. there's something to think about.
going back for a sec, sugar rum cherry went better than i could've planned. i'm excited about that. and MALAGA was awesome, as expected. i really want to do something thursday night, since i'm leaving fri for the entire break. :-( someone plan something.
once again, the end of my lj.
Otomo No Yakamochi
Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
Luigi Pirandello
In bed my real love has always been the sleep that rescued me by allowing me to dream.
p.s.
you now have three days to plan your re-induction......time is wasting.(you know who you are)
tj :-) |
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| blah... |
[Dec. 14th, 2003|12:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | x-files music | ] |
today was a very boring day. no one really wanted to do anything. i came homw from church around 12:30 pm, and didn't leave my room until close to five or so. then i went shopping with my mom for some skiing stuff. came home and ate dinner, and i've been in my room since then. what a day.
some band people have been getting on my nerves again, gut that's expected when youy spend so much time with the same people. i leave friday, and i won't see anyone until the fourth, so i want to hang out as much as possible this week, even though my only free might is thursday, and i'll probably be packing.
tuesday we have a fusion rehearsal, and i'm pretty damn excited. i have a good feeling about this group, and its giving me one more thing that has to do with band to look forward to.
i'm pretty sure thats it, until next time.
Nothing Brings People together more, then mutual hatred
- Henry Rollins
how true this is............ |
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